Monday, June 2, 2014

A Love Note to the Local Music Scene

I’ve found myself wondering why I moved to this city. Why do I invest so much of myself, my time, into a community of people just to watch them bicker and fight like two-year-olds in daycare centers? Why do I spend my money on tickets? Why do I purchase merchandise for your band or shell out $5-$10 for your four to six track “cd?” Why go to the show you are busting your ass to promote, only to get five to seven people through the door? Why? Why trouble myself to support you all, when you don’t support each other?

Not too long ago I was a “real” member of the music scene. A much smaller music scene in a state that quite frequently, and quite passionately, gets shit on for various reasons. Some of which are completely ridiculous. We barely bickered. We never snuck behind each other backs and placed blame or sabotaged each other. We never broke ties either. We supported one another not only because we were friends but because we knew that to play music any other way, at our level, would be counterproductive.  We needed each other to ensure our “scene” would be successful.

So we bought each other’s show tickets; we drove 50+ miles to each other’s barely packed shows. We purchased each other’s low quality merch when we knew we’d gladly give it to each other for free. We support one another because there was no one else to support us. We were a family! We still are a family even though less than half of us are still playing the music we love.

I moved to this city, to be a part of a similar brotherhood again. I thought I found it; Smiling faces supporting other smiling faces. After a few months of being in this scene I’ve noticed the rose colored glasses were way too bright and the support was a façade. I noticed if you took off the heart-shaped specs, the bad blood and bickering were right there on the surface, underneath grinning masks made of papier-mâché and ulterior motives. It’s heartbreaking!

I’m not saying it should have been all sunshine and roses all of the time but come one, say what you mean, mean what you say, and follow through with your promises. I know things can’t be awesome all of the time but for Christ sake, I could set a schedule by the outbursts of drama shifting around this town.

You’re probably asking yourself, Devo why are you writing this? Who are you referring to? What are you getting at, aka what is the point? Are you going to end this with a resignation from, whatever it is that you do in this scene (because let’s face it no one really knows what I do, but you all feel the impact of my actions)? 

My answers to your questions are simple:

1   1.     I’m writing this because I care way to God damn much about people who could give a zero fucks about me. I’m writing this because I want you all to know that it breaks my heart to see people who are so passionate about their art, get drug down  and preoccupied with “school yard drama” and the subsequent tactics used to insight it.  It’s heartbreaking!

2.  I’m referring to no one and every one! We’ve all seen it, heard it, felt it, and been in involved in a situation, at some point in the past 8-9months that has resulted in migraine inducing, scream fight instigating drama (myself included). It’s neither helpful nor necessary. There are ways to mediate issues between bands, promoters, venues/bars, without child-like actions. I promise you. I was a conflict mediator at one point in my life, I swear to you there are alternatives.

3.      What I’m getting at is simple as well, stop fighting and unite your efforts. I know there is money involved when you’re a promoter, bar owner, etc., but there are ways to promote yourself to generate income and not sully the competition. It is possible. Imagine what we could do with this music scene if we all worked together? How awesome it would be to see four or five of our friend’s bands get signed to major record labels and spread their music across the country if we’d just help each other out? I think that would be pretty awesome.

4.      What exactly am I going to resign from? Yes, I do public relations for an independent record label when they call upon me (by the way they are in no way endorsing this message. This was my own dumbass idea). To resign from that position would be to turn my back on something I love dearly, which is writing and using my writing skills to promote my talented friends. Not to mention “what exactly I do in this scene” is support all of you by going to your shows, buying your music and merch, and spreading the word about your music at each and every chance I get. How does one resign from being a fan?

I’m writing this solely because I care and I don’t want to see this scene get divide by pettiness. The quote below that you are hopefully going to read, was my inspiration for this rant. It’s from a book called Things a Little Bird Told Me by Biz Stone, Co-founder of Twitter. In this chapter he muses about how awesome it would be if, instead of competing with each other, everyone just collaborated. How far advanced do you image us as a world would have gone by now? How far do you imagine we could go? I’m just asking that we scale it down. Imagine what we, the local music scene of Philadelphia (the city of brotherly love that is not producing much love at all), could accomplish if we joined our efforts and supported each other, communicated our grievances instead of declaring war?

Just think about it! I’m not asking for responses or revolution, just a little less negativity and hate and more love and support. I’ll still be around at ALL OF YOUR SHOWS, regardless of my affiliations and newly acquired employment, supporting everyone equally. The same goes for social media promotion as well \m/ <3 Okay here’s the quote:

What if we weren’t citizens of a particular country or state? What if we were citizens of the world? …Flocking is a triumph of humanity. It can make things happen. Imagine if humanity could cooperate like an emergent life form – we could get things done in a single year that would otherwise take one hundred years to do. Imagine if all the world’s astrophysicists put their egos aside and collaborated on a Mars mission? Or all the environmental scientists worked as one on global warming? Or the world’s best oncologists took on cancer together, one type at a time? Only 114,000 people in the world have thirty million dollars or more in assets. What if they were in a Google group and decided to invest in one thing to change the course of history?


Then there’s all of us, and together we are more powerful than any one thing. Can you imagine what we could get done (212)?

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

A Shit load of Sonnets or Sonnets I wrote when I felt like shit and other magical tunes


13.
I felt an inner rage again
It didn’t catch me off guard
This time I felt it weld within me
I braced myself while it grew inside
I held my breath while it breached my boundaries
I started breathing slow and deep
imagining an inner light
healing pain and hurt and rage
Then everything grew silent and still
Everything was blank but gone
All my emotions floating in mid air
All of my issues moving away
I’ll take this alternative any day
To the pain and the hurt and the blinding rage.

14.
The hot summer sun on my face
The salty sea air at my side
The burning gold sand on my skin
The shade of my glasses on my eyes
I feel the cleansing of the salt saturated breeze
As it covers and washes over me
I hear the music in the gulls
As they cry out of life “under the sea”
Here I sit solitary
Reflecting the cold soul within
Here I concentrate on individuality
Hoping to warm the hopelessness I’m in
And when I have succeeded and risen burning bright
I’ll be a better being; strong still and living right.

15.
“Let’s make a pact,” he said
Eyes set upon mine
Lips pressed close to mine.
No concept of space and time
“Remain friends,” he whispered
Holding hands we promised
And proceeded with life
But now those words are gone and dead
I lay, confused and filled with dread
You reminded me of my promise
Then proceeded to break it yourself
You reminded me of this promise
Then placed me casually on a shelf
Turned me to face the back of the wall

Thursday, May 8, 2014

Mas Sonnets

10.
I don’t care about your feelings
Because you never wonder about mine
I don’t worry how your night went
Because you don’t give mine the time
I don’t ponder how your thoughts flow
In and out of your brain
I’m not concerned if they’ve poisoned you
Or if they’re driving you insane
Because the memories of you are sweeter
Than the reality you’re playing out
The past was choice and now’s a bummer
I’m sure you miss them too; Though I’m riddled with doubts
Because happiness is a choice, I know you’ve heard it said
I’d rather be there when you’re hurting than feel like you’re already dead

11.
Here she is again the women in my dreams
Completely naked; squeaky clean
An inviting smile upon her face
Legs spread to her ears
The smell of roses and tulips and tiger lilies and fears
Her breasts are mountains when she arches her back
They are mountains when her back is flat
Her ebony hair a veil of her passion
It’s dark and enticing and foreboding
It’s satin between my fingertips
The flesh on her lips; use your imagination
Sometimes these dreams trouble me
But after I’ve cum and shuttered and teared
I bury myself inside her like there’s no hope left here

12.
The conditions of happy
Aren’t THAT hard to get
You wake in the morning
You choose it or you don’t
You follow through with a smile
You laugh at someone’s jokes
You hug your family and your friends and you mean it
You listen to a pal vent and give advice sincerely…they need it
The conditions of happy seem to be a task for some people
They come out in the evening
And are looking for trouble
They find you and target you and filet your good mood
They judge the very purpose of your being
They are the worst kind of attitude

SWT: Sonnets with Titles

Death Wish in a Glass Bottle
The smell was pungent
It saturated the air
The dirt in my hair
The stains on my clothes
The mess of mascara and the maggots in my toes.
The letter was short but a far cry from sweet
The sentences daggers
Death stains porcelain teeth
I wrapped it in twine and i shoved it in glass
I corked up the opening; sealed it real fast
I shoveled the earth back in place; packed it down
I placed red roses on the surface; no one around
A moment of silence for the dearly departed
You still have my heart but I finished what you started


A Change in Obvious Appearances
The rumors are spilling
I see them churning the mill
I watch them burning the town down
I watch the truth standing still
I see assumptions are forming
I hear opinions and tall tales
I take everyones wondering
How much did he break it
I’m minding my business
I’m keeping my mouth shut
I’m trying to trust that, the truth will pull through
I’m hoping and praying and wishing on stars
I’m willing to bet there’s more I can do
But the only one who can allow that is you.

All my favorite authors have stolen all my best plot lines
I find myself a tad bit clever
But in the end I fear I’m wrong
This title is a play on lyrics
A band I love; an awesome song
I find the things I want to pen down
Already’ve been birthed from someone else's heart
I think if I just change the ending
You may be able to tell them apart
Plagiarism is not a thing now
People cheating is common place
Copy and paste someone else’s thoughts down
Wear the lie across your face
Sell the lie and promote its shamelessly
I guess I was right; you’re no more clever than me

Monday, May 5, 2014

Sonnets about Sex Part 1

A Lustful Mediocrity
He says he doesn’t know what I mean by this
Utter passionate display of affection
He’s saying he doesn’t understand my actions
I reply with your words don’t make sense
He claims I’m confusing;
The difference between my body language and the words I whisper
I swear he’s an idiot
Why can’t he just see how urgent this desire bleeds?
I rip his shirt above his head
I bite his chest and chew his lips
I tear his belt from his waist and then
Tie his hands to limit his
Movement in and out of me
Crying for a moments release; this lustful mediocrity

A Midnight Flogging
I remember a night when
I was the goddess you desired
All the lustful pain in your loins contained
And released in hellish fire
I remember a night when
I was all the release you needed
A hand full of ass
Your mouth on mine fast
And your fingers knuckle deep inside me
I remember a night when we sat there
Side by side in my ride there
And we talked about desire
and goals and this fire was  
All that we needed to live

This is Taboo Too
He was a stranger to her
She never met him before
His eyes were a gorgeous shade of blue
His hair barely there on the top of his head
But that wasn’t important to these two
His chest stressed his shirt buttons
His dress pants were taught tight
And his palms were sweaty and clammy
She straddled his lap, he was ready to snap
As SHE invited him to spend the night
Two strangers met in a bar but an hour ago
Two consenting adults no catch here
The desire between them, thick as cream you could feel them
The sex was amazing...so I hear!

A Sonnet for your Bleeding heart and more such sonnets

A Sonnet For Your Bleeding Heart
In these last few months I’ve learned
The end is never really the end
The feelings seep through and haunt you
The demons creep through and stalk you
The emotions run rampant and tear at your sanity
They fill you with doubt and confusion and dismay
They ask for your input, then toss it away
They leave you exhausted
A heap in your sheets and a mess in a pile
They ask you to stop and think for awhile
They twist and they turn your
Intention and esteem your
Heart bled clean
You’re a deer in the headlights victim

7.
There she hides in plain sight
She worries more than she plans
She hears more and listens than
She never fulfills her promise
There she is in hell or high water
Wipe your ass at a moment’s notice
Bare her breast to keep your trousers clean
Hold you close, listen to you scream
Abuse! Abuse! Abuse! and Neglect
Invisible bruises on her neck
Invisible stab wounds in her side
Invisible contusions behind her eyes
Though silence from her throat does rise
Take a moment and recognize

8.
The sun will never set on you
I promise too, no pain or hurt
The moon will always rise in love
The memory of, this touch and kiss
The Universe will return to you
Blissful gifts of
your heart’s desires
And these empty promises I keep
While you’re asleep; my beautiful Sire
I watch you though you ask me not to
Protect you though you need it not
I save you though you long to fix it
This tragically heroic plot
Save me Sir, I beg of you

9.
I’ve never felt this way before
Desire in me grows
From the depths of my sex to the tip of my nose
It stems from my toes as it builds at my spine
Your heart on your chest, dressed in “Nevin”; Divine
The curve of your belly
And the fullness of  lips
This kiss is forbidden; how I long for this kiss
To kiss your neither lips and in between your breasts
Where the fantasy of my face does rest
I want to spread you wide
And discover you deep
Create an arch in your back; an “O” in your lips
A moan in your throat and quiver in your hips

Saturday, May 3, 2014

Honesty’s Fine Print



Every contract has it’s catch
Don’t believe anything different
They ask you to join their club and sign
On the dotted line
Better believe there’s another drift in it

Every contract has it’s curveball and slight of hand
Best believe the words I’m preaching
They give you the cash
They ask for it back
Plus more, no less; don’t be swindled.

But you would never think Honesty’s contract
Would be littered with fineprint conditions
You would think it’s the best bet
I’m here to tell you don’t believe it
There’s a catch to this euphoric concept; it’s hidden.

Give honesty open hearted, they ask you
Full disclosure, no half truths, no lies
But what they always forget to mention is
Reception is just as important as
The truth in the honesty unconfined.

Everyone wants honesty until they actually get it!

Be prepared that the honesty you get
Is not exactly the honesty you want
Dont be afraid to admit it.