Tuesday, June 24, 2014

And Now They Thrive

You killed parts of me
But they needed to die
He waters other parts of me
And now they thrive

I don't remember tears now
Unless they are filled with joy
But I remember the pit of my stomach on the floor
The pit of my stomach is there no more

His laugh is the music that fills my heart
His smile the sun that brightens my soul
His thoughts and words nourish my vacant parking lot of existence
But now its not so vacant
Now they're filled with his heart beat….infinite.

I see my past as a path with intent
The intentions fulfilled and in the past they stay
My future an opportunity made and paid in silver and gold, with ambition and vision and goals
I know this is the ellipsis I've been dying for
Now I live for it.
He's all I need and more.

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

They Bleed the Truth So Ugly and Viral

13. (Pleads From the Self)
I’ve hidden in the shadows enough
Your errands bore my zealous soul
I’ve waited in your dungeon forever
Let my light shine through your eyes
I’ve longed for recognition and gratitude
But you push me deep; away from the surface
I cannot bare the neglect and the disdain
They chide at me with insolence
You lose me in the heart of another
Then mourn me when the other is gone
You sacrifice me in the name of  “love”
But search for me when the passion is done
I harbor no ill-will to you but my request is pretty clear
Get to know me better now or my presence will cease to be here

14.
He hits me with a left hook
Then leaves me bleeding
His words the brunt of the left hook
My face so lost; unclear
I ask for clarification
But am only met with stares so blank
I ask “what exactly do you mean by that?”
But still the air is vacant
I can’t approve of your methods sir
Your opinions are strong and misguided
You dictate them with passion and earnest
But explain them not when challenged.
Did he mute you? Did he request you to keep your yap trap shut?
I think that’s the best you can do, when the only one who cares what you have to say is you!

15.
The air around me is thin
In the room we occupy together
Though the space between us is dense
Saturated with things left un settled.
I smile and pretend things will be okay
But the fear is still there
The fear equaling unknown information
The ignorance is the space between us and you know it
Just tell me what it is
Tell me why it is
Feed me the truth so I can sleep at night; enjoy my life;
Give my heart entirely where it needs to be; longs to be
You know there is a pea in this mattress we build together …yet you ignore it
You ignore it because it give you power…power over me.

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

25 Things I Learned from Biz: A Recollection of Life Changing Philosophies!

Things I learned from Biz Stone Co-Creator of Twitter


This list was compiled of all the advice and philosophies I sticky tabbed while reading Biz’s book Things A little Bird Told Me: Confessions of a Creative Mind. Though much of what he talked about was specific to starting your own company, and building a profitable business in general, a lot of what he said, and he even mentioned it himself, can be applied to your everyday life and how you live in society.

I felt the lessons I learned in his anecdotes were worth simplifying into a neat list for my friends and family. I also included various quotes to better emphasize the concisely stated ideals. I hope you learn something life changing from his words as I did. Enjoy!

  1. Re-invent yourself. Be the persona in your wildest fantasies.
  2. Take risks and make your own opportunities.
  3. Creativity is a renewable resource. Challenge yourself everyday. Find a new approach to something, anything. “Experience and curiosity drive us to make unexpected, offbeat connections. It is these nonlinear steps that often lead to the greatest work (23).”
  4. Creativity is infinite (it’s worth saying again!).
  5. Be willing to fail, don’t be afraid. Go past the point of no return.
  6. Be engaged in your work. If you don’t love what you do there is no point in doing it.
    1. “...I realized the value of emotional investment. you know in your heart something’s worth pursuing; you’re not sure exactly why, but it doesn’t matter. Success isn’t guaranteed, but failure is certain if you aren’t truly emotionally invested in your work (51).”
  7. Embrace your constraints...they are proactive. They are challenging. They wake you up. They make you more creative. They make you better (57).
  8. Working together is better than working alone.
  9. Be human it yields good will; Embrace your flaws and be honest.
  10. Be genuine! “It doesn’t pay to be bulletproof. nobody is flawless and when you act as if you are, it always rings false (95).”
  11. Failure is part of the path!
    1. “...Failure is part of the path. It was worth the risk. in fact, it was a critical component of growth. By sharing it with our users, we were showing our ultimate confidence in ourselves and our success. We weren’t quitting, and we hoped our faith would inspire theirs (97).
  12. Solutions emerge if you look for the positive. “...finding the bright spot. When everything’s wrong and broken, instead of harping on what’s wrong and broken, find what works, and build on that. Seek out the positive ‘bright spot’ amid seemingly limitless negativity (101).”
    1. “...the bright spot theory is about a fundamentally positive outlook. Rose-colored glasses tint the world with false beauty. But an open, curious, optimistic mind yields solutions, and has a better time along the way (102).”
  13. Leadership sometimes means “cultivating the appearance of confidence.”
  14. You set your own value so set it high.
  15. Be open to the idea that you do not have all the answers, but the people around you might.
  16. There’s no harm in proposing change. Just make sure your ducks are in a row:
    1. “...opportunities like this are easier to recognize and implement in the workplace….Rules are there to help us--to create a culture, to streamline productivity, and to promote success. But we’re not computers that need to be programmed. We’re all a bunch of oddballs. Just because someone has authority, doesn’t mean they know better. If you approach your bosses or colleagues with respect, and your goals are in alignment, there’s often room for a little customization and flexibility….The solution, always, is to listen carefully -- to your own needs and to those of the people around you (148).”
  17. Be diligent in the pursuit of your goals.
  18. Never follow rules blindly: “Trust your instincts, know what you want, and believe in your ability to achieve it. Rules and conventions are important for schools, businesses, and society in general, but you should never follow them blindly. And it always helps to have a like-minded partner in crime (154).”
  19. Assumptions = Fear and “Fear in the absence of knowledge breeds irrationality (158)”
  20. Always seek knowledge in the face of fear!....keep your mind open, pursue knowledge, and see the bigger picture (159).
  21. In everything you do employ these virtues: empathy, altruism, humanity, open mindedness;
  22. Employ these affirmative assumptions: you don’t always know what’s going to happen; some people are smarter than you; do the right thing; the only deal worth doing is a win-win deal; people have good intentions; you can be successful, change the world, and have fun.
  23. Give back to your community every chance you get. It doesn’t have to be monetarily. Deeds are returnable investments as well.
  24. Stand up for what you believe is right.
  25. Collaboration is better than nasty competition. Band together, support one another, and encourage progressive change.

Monday, June 2, 2014

A Love Note to the Local Music Scene

I’ve found myself wondering why I moved to this city. Why do I invest so much of myself, my time, into a community of people just to watch them bicker and fight like two-year-olds in daycare centers? Why do I spend my money on tickets? Why do I purchase merchandise for your band or shell out $5-$10 for your four to six track “cd?” Why go to the show you are busting your ass to promote, only to get five to seven people through the door? Why? Why trouble myself to support you all, when you don’t support each other?

Not too long ago I was a “real” member of the music scene. A much smaller music scene in a state that quite frequently, and quite passionately, gets shit on for various reasons. Some of which are completely ridiculous. We barely bickered. We never snuck behind each other backs and placed blame or sabotaged each other. We never broke ties either. We supported one another not only because we were friends but because we knew that to play music any other way, at our level, would be counterproductive.  We needed each other to ensure our “scene” would be successful.

So we bought each other’s show tickets; we drove 50+ miles to each other’s barely packed shows. We purchased each other’s low quality merch when we knew we’d gladly give it to each other for free. We support one another because there was no one else to support us. We were a family! We still are a family even though less than half of us are still playing the music we love.

I moved to this city, to be a part of a similar brotherhood again. I thought I found it; Smiling faces supporting other smiling faces. After a few months of being in this scene I’ve noticed the rose colored glasses were way too bright and the support was a façade. I noticed if you took off the heart-shaped specs, the bad blood and bickering were right there on the surface, underneath grinning masks made of papier-mâché and ulterior motives. It’s heartbreaking!

I’m not saying it should have been all sunshine and roses all of the time but come one, say what you mean, mean what you say, and follow through with your promises. I know things can’t be awesome all of the time but for Christ sake, I could set a schedule by the outbursts of drama shifting around this town.

You’re probably asking yourself, Devo why are you writing this? Who are you referring to? What are you getting at, aka what is the point? Are you going to end this with a resignation from, whatever it is that you do in this scene (because let’s face it no one really knows what I do, but you all feel the impact of my actions)? 

My answers to your questions are simple:

1   1.     I’m writing this because I care way to God damn much about people who could give a zero fucks about me. I’m writing this because I want you all to know that it breaks my heart to see people who are so passionate about their art, get drug down  and preoccupied with “school yard drama” and the subsequent tactics used to insight it.  It’s heartbreaking!

2.  I’m referring to no one and every one! We’ve all seen it, heard it, felt it, and been in involved in a situation, at some point in the past 8-9months that has resulted in migraine inducing, scream fight instigating drama (myself included). It’s neither helpful nor necessary. There are ways to mediate issues between bands, promoters, venues/bars, without child-like actions. I promise you. I was a conflict mediator at one point in my life, I swear to you there are alternatives.

3.      What I’m getting at is simple as well, stop fighting and unite your efforts. I know there is money involved when you’re a promoter, bar owner, etc., but there are ways to promote yourself to generate income and not sully the competition. It is possible. Imagine what we could do with this music scene if we all worked together? How awesome it would be to see four or five of our friend’s bands get signed to major record labels and spread their music across the country if we’d just help each other out? I think that would be pretty awesome.

4.      What exactly am I going to resign from? Yes, I do public relations for an independent record label when they call upon me (by the way they are in no way endorsing this message. This was my own dumbass idea). To resign from that position would be to turn my back on something I love dearly, which is writing and using my writing skills to promote my talented friends. Not to mention “what exactly I do in this scene” is support all of you by going to your shows, buying your music and merch, and spreading the word about your music at each and every chance I get. How does one resign from being a fan?

I’m writing this solely because I care and I don’t want to see this scene get divide by pettiness. The quote below that you are hopefully going to read, was my inspiration for this rant. It’s from a book called Things a Little Bird Told Me by Biz Stone, Co-founder of Twitter. In this chapter he muses about how awesome it would be if, instead of competing with each other, everyone just collaborated. How far advanced do you image us as a world would have gone by now? How far do you imagine we could go? I’m just asking that we scale it down. Imagine what we, the local music scene of Philadelphia (the city of brotherly love that is not producing much love at all), could accomplish if we joined our efforts and supported each other, communicated our grievances instead of declaring war?

Just think about it! I’m not asking for responses or revolution, just a little less negativity and hate and more love and support. I’ll still be around at ALL OF YOUR SHOWS, regardless of my affiliations and newly acquired employment, supporting everyone equally. The same goes for social media promotion as well \m/ <3 Okay here’s the quote:

What if we weren’t citizens of a particular country or state? What if we were citizens of the world? …Flocking is a triumph of humanity. It can make things happen. Imagine if humanity could cooperate like an emergent life form – we could get things done in a single year that would otherwise take one hundred years to do. Imagine if all the world’s astrophysicists put their egos aside and collaborated on a Mars mission? Or all the environmental scientists worked as one on global warming? Or the world’s best oncologists took on cancer together, one type at a time? Only 114,000 people in the world have thirty million dollars or more in assets. What if they were in a Google group and decided to invest in one thing to change the course of history?


Then there’s all of us, and together we are more powerful than any one thing. Can you imagine what we could get done (212)?

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

A Shit load of Sonnets or Sonnets I wrote when I felt like shit and other magical tunes


13.
I felt an inner rage again
It didn’t catch me off guard
This time I felt it weld within me
I braced myself while it grew inside
I held my breath while it breached my boundaries
I started breathing slow and deep
imagining an inner light
healing pain and hurt and rage
Then everything grew silent and still
Everything was blank but gone
All my emotions floating in mid air
All of my issues moving away
I’ll take this alternative any day
To the pain and the hurt and the blinding rage.

14.
The hot summer sun on my face
The salty sea air at my side
The burning gold sand on my skin
The shade of my glasses on my eyes
I feel the cleansing of the salt saturated breeze
As it covers and washes over me
I hear the music in the gulls
As they cry out of life “under the sea”
Here I sit solitary
Reflecting the cold soul within
Here I concentrate on individuality
Hoping to warm the hopelessness I’m in
And when I have succeeded and risen burning bright
I’ll be a better being; strong still and living right.

15.
“Let’s make a pact,” he said
Eyes set upon mine
Lips pressed close to mine.
No concept of space and time
“Remain friends,” he whispered
Holding hands we promised
And proceeded with life
But now those words are gone and dead
I lay, confused and filled with dread
You reminded me of my promise
Then proceeded to break it yourself
You reminded me of this promise
Then placed me casually on a shelf
Turned me to face the back of the wall

Thursday, May 8, 2014

Mas Sonnets

10.
I don’t care about your feelings
Because you never wonder about mine
I don’t worry how your night went
Because you don’t give mine the time
I don’t ponder how your thoughts flow
In and out of your brain
I’m not concerned if they’ve poisoned you
Or if they’re driving you insane
Because the memories of you are sweeter
Than the reality you’re playing out
The past was choice and now’s a bummer
I’m sure you miss them too; Though I’m riddled with doubts
Because happiness is a choice, I know you’ve heard it said
I’d rather be there when you’re hurting than feel like you’re already dead

11.
Here she is again the women in my dreams
Completely naked; squeaky clean
An inviting smile upon her face
Legs spread to her ears
The smell of roses and tulips and tiger lilies and fears
Her breasts are mountains when she arches her back
They are mountains when her back is flat
Her ebony hair a veil of her passion
It’s dark and enticing and foreboding
It’s satin between my fingertips
The flesh on her lips; use your imagination
Sometimes these dreams trouble me
But after I’ve cum and shuttered and teared
I bury myself inside her like there’s no hope left here

12.
The conditions of happy
Aren’t THAT hard to get
You wake in the morning
You choose it or you don’t
You follow through with a smile
You laugh at someone’s jokes
You hug your family and your friends and you mean it
You listen to a pal vent and give advice sincerely…they need it
The conditions of happy seem to be a task for some people
They come out in the evening
And are looking for trouble
They find you and target you and filet your good mood
They judge the very purpose of your being
They are the worst kind of attitude

SWT: Sonnets with Titles

Death Wish in a Glass Bottle
The smell was pungent
It saturated the air
The dirt in my hair
The stains on my clothes
The mess of mascara and the maggots in my toes.
The letter was short but a far cry from sweet
The sentences daggers
Death stains porcelain teeth
I wrapped it in twine and i shoved it in glass
I corked up the opening; sealed it real fast
I shoveled the earth back in place; packed it down
I placed red roses on the surface; no one around
A moment of silence for the dearly departed
You still have my heart but I finished what you started


A Change in Obvious Appearances
The rumors are spilling
I see them churning the mill
I watch them burning the town down
I watch the truth standing still
I see assumptions are forming
I hear opinions and tall tales
I take everyones wondering
How much did he break it
I’m minding my business
I’m keeping my mouth shut
I’m trying to trust that, the truth will pull through
I’m hoping and praying and wishing on stars
I’m willing to bet there’s more I can do
But the only one who can allow that is you.

All my favorite authors have stolen all my best plot lines
I find myself a tad bit clever
But in the end I fear I’m wrong
This title is a play on lyrics
A band I love; an awesome song
I find the things I want to pen down
Already’ve been birthed from someone else's heart
I think if I just change the ending
You may be able to tell them apart
Plagiarism is not a thing now
People cheating is common place
Copy and paste someone else’s thoughts down
Wear the lie across your face
Sell the lie and promote its shamelessly
I guess I was right; you’re no more clever than me